The first of many doctors appointments!

There has not been much change since the last time that I blogged. As far as the doctors appointments and such. Yesterday 12/29/2010 at 8:30am I went in for all my shot training. How to mix the shots ( 5 units into 1 cc of water), how to give myself the shots . I will not only be taking Lupron which I started last night, I will also be on the following medications; lupron, bravelle, menopur ( bravelle and menopur I will mix together into one injections nightly), hcf 10,000 unit trigger shot, azithromycin, Medrol, Crinon, Prometrium, Vivelle Patch, Prenatals, Baby Asprin. Now after reading those I know your thinking! How in the heck is she going to keep up with all those medications and times, and when to take what. Well I have a fantastic staff at premier fertility that will be taking the baby steps with me. Angela is litereally my angel she will be guiding me in these steps. Right now I am just taking 10units of Lupron until Jan 7th . Along with the birth control pill that I will stop taking Jan 3rd. On Jan 7th I go in for a " mock transfer" that is where Dr Deaton just gets a good look at everything and knows where everthing is placed.

January 8th is the day that I start the big shots and drop down to 5units of Lupron a night. I still will be on prenatals and baby asprin. I am not sure what the baby asprin is for (maybe I should ask) but I am sure that since I cant take anything else over the counter medications that its to offset if I am in pain. From January 8th throught 1/14 I will continue to take the shots nightly along with going to get an ultrasound every other day and blood work. This is to make sure my folicles(eggs) are growing as they should for day of retrieval. Hopefully by 1/14 the doctor will be able to give me a date and time to take the trigger shot. After the trigger shot I will wait exactly 36 hours and go in for retrieval. If these words sound funny to you in my previous post I posted a link explaining IVF in detail refer to that if you have any other detail questions :)After retreival is done the doctor will tell us how many eggs he was able to retrieve then at that time I can go home and rest and wait for another phone call to tell us how many embryos that we have and we will make the choice how many to put back. Neal and I have already decided that we would like to put back 2 if possible. Then we will be given a time for transfer. We are praying that we go to a 5 day transfer which is called blastocyst which gives us a greater chance that the IVF cycle will work. We then go in on whichever day we are told and it takes 5 min for the transfer . Then the waiting game begins. I have planned on taking a few days off after the transfer justc cause well lets face it , I will not be much good if I am sitting at my desking wondering if I am pregnant or not. If we do a 3 day transfer I have to wait 10 days to take a blood test to see if I am pregnant. If we do a 5 day transfer we only have to wait 8 days!! So we shall see. Its all in Gods hands. We know this. We have prayed and ask God that whatever happends be in His will.

So thats the dillio of what Neal and I are going through right now. There is a ton more that actually goes into all of this but I just wanted to give you the low down and the basics.

I know many of you will want to know right away if it worked. However for our privacy we have both agreed that until I am 8 weeks along we will not share with facebook or the rest of the world. Just our family. Not that we will not be happy we just want to make sure all is well with the baby or babies and myself. Many of my friends and family think that this is going to be one of the hardest things for me to do and I wont lie! When I get that phone call saying that I am pregant there will be no words in the dictionary to explain the feelings that I will have! I cant fathom how it will be but know that you guys will find out.

So thats basically it. I plan to blog weekly from now on just to keep everyone posted on the shots and ultrasounds. I am trying not to blast it all over facebook so just keep visiting out blog to get updates!

We are truly excited about what God has in store and knows that He is the way the truth and the life! We give God all the glory !

We love you all!

Happy New Year and God Bless

Neal & Elizabeth

Lots to be Thankful for...

I should be working however this is what I feel that I want to do so as most of you know I usually do what I want lol. I work better under pressure so thats why I wait to do some things :)

I thought that I would write about what I am thankful for. At times our lives seem so busy where we forget to thank or appriciate the little things in life that matter the most but seem to put on the back burner.

First and formost I am thankful for Jesus dying on the cross for our sins so that we can have an ever lasting life. I know that there have been times in my life where I took that for granted, where I said and did things that were not of God and for that I asked for forgivness as God said ask and ye shall be given. I thank God for his understanding and for his love. For loving me no matter where I was in life and no matter how much I was so undiserving. Thats the thing about Gods Grace is that we do not deserve it, but He is so willing to give it. And no expectations but to live life for Him, to be His servant, to have a servants heart, to worship only Him and to be a diciple for Him. So today I am thankful for my relationship with my heavly Father!

Second I am thankful for my husband. I know many of you reading this know our history and our past. I know some of you even thought we wouldnt make it. But almost 11 years later and just shy 5 months of a 7 year marriage we are still making it strong. This marriage has taught me alot in life and that no matter the ups or down as long as God is our foundation we can litterally make it through everything. No we are not perfect, we fuss at times, we dont get along all the time (lol) but thats the thing with Neal and I we dont fake it, we have an issue we talk about it and work it out then we are fine. Neither of us hold grudges because that would just make is resent each other. We just pray and ask God to heal whatever bothering us and whatever we need to do to make things better we both try.I thank God for the man Neal has become and the man is will be. I thank God for giving me someone that loves me for me and my flaws.

Third I am thankfor for my family, my crazy, insane, wild, funny family. I know everyone can have a weird bunch in their family well I am not afraid to say it. Its known that we do lol. But I love each and eveyone. We may not all agree or get along but family is family.

Fourth my friends... I have some of the best friends ever! My momma always told me that when you get older you most likely wont have the friends that you had growing up, you grow up, go different paths and thats ok your not intended to walk the same path, she said as you grow older you will be able to count the number of true good friends on your hands. Which is so true! I have the most supportive friends, understanding, prayer warriors, pationate , carring God sent friends. I never thought that I could be as lucky as I am with my group of friends. I am truly blessed by each of you and those that are reading this are some of my most treasured friends as you have prayed and saught God during all the infertility issues. So from the bottom of my heart Thank you!

So in general I am thankful for every living breathing thing in my life from my furbabies to my family! I am blessed beyond words. I look forward to what God has in store for Neal and I future and I look forward to being able to share my journey with all my loved ones, friends and family!!

With love and HAPPY HAPPY THANKSGIVING

Elizabeth

WOOOOOOOWEEEEE!!!! Thank God ... ENOUGH SAID

So as we all know fertility can be very stress full and a financial hardship on couples going through any fertility situation. Well a few years back my insurance did not even cover any kind of fertility treatment. Then 2 years ago our insurance changed to where we were covered for $10,000-$15,000 for fertility treatments and 100% for diagnosis treatment. And a $5,000 cap for prescription on fertility medication. While we have been seeing Dr. Deaton we had actually never touched any of our funds with out fertility up until the last cycle when we started the shots. We had to tap into $3,500 of the medication cap. So needless to say we only had $1,500 left in our prescription cap. When we last met with Dr . Deaton we were told it was going to be $2,000-$3,500 for medication to do just one IVF cycle. So Neal and I were ok with that since we had the money to actually cover the IVF procedure with my insurance. Even though I know and trust in God that its all in His plan so we were ok with doing one round of IVF. So needless to say we mentally knew that we needed to save for our procedure. Well...

Today when we received our information to update our insurance information online. I went on there and looked at the premium changes and accepted it all and clicked ok. Then went on working as if nothing was different. My friend Erica that is obviously way more attentive then I am did the same however she read the part that said " Changes in your 2011 Benefits" She said "hey Liz did you notice the change with the infertility stuff.?" My heart literally sank and all I thought was "oh no they have decided its too expensive, they are not going to cover anything , here we go again on the roller coaster on the financial infertility ride" I said "no whats it say" Erica then printed off the hundred page document and there it was page 3 and 4. It explained what our coverage was and said "eliminated" I couldn't believe my eyes. Then page 4 went into detail and specifically said plain as day that infertility was covered at 100% for two cycles which means 2 IVF cycles and that there was no longer a $5,000 cap , that there was unlimited eligible drugs for fertility. I was shocked, stunned, amazed, felt overly blessed. So my natural reaction was I cried. Erica was so supportive and hugged me said " See Liz God is working it all out" I was so grateful for her support and also that she knew me so much that she knew deep inside I needed that peace. I first said a prayer thanking God for His many blessing and opening a door where I have prayed if this path was what He had in store that He make it possible. I then I told everyone that I was close with and text and emailed all that have been keeping up with our blessing in the making . I then called Neal he really didn't understand what the paper said but then I explained it to him and he was happy. I then called my mother and she was very very excited. I know that everyone doesn't really know everything that takes place when you go through IVF but hopefully now I have explained a little more in dept IVF.

So there we have it... Great , Good, Fantastic NEWS!!

Thank you everyone that had prayed and been involved in this journey! I am so excited about what God has in store for us! This door has been opened and Neal, myself and God are all walking through it together!

So Siked!!!

Thank you again God for answering prayers!!

Love you all!!

Elizabeth

I was touched by this...

The other night I went to my very sweet and dear friends Angie's house and spent time with her and her three kids. I love going over there and spending time with her family I always leave with a smile. When I was over there the most sweetest thing happened. She has a "step" son name Luke and even though he is not biologically hers she loves him just as though she gave birth to him herself. He is so sweet and passive and pretty much does whatever he is told. And he respects her. As most of us know having the title "step" in front of our names sometimes can leave a bad taste in your mouths. Well this is so not the case. After Angie made us all a yummy dinner we were watching the movie "The night in the Museum" I have never seen it. Well Luke couldn't get it on his TV s0 he asked if he could sit beside Angie and watch it. I thought that was sweet. Then he sat right beside her. I got a knot in my throat because I just thought that was sweet. Then a few minutes later he had his head leaned against her arm and right then I just started crying. Now call me hormonal if you want but that had to be one of the sweetest moments I have ever seen between a step mom and step son. It was like all he wanted was to be close to her and to love on her and for her to love on him. Luke has never really had a mother figure besides his Nana so Angie is his "mother". That night I witnessed more love shown between two people that God placed in each others lives. Showed me that no mater what role you play in a child's life that in the end all they want is to feel loved. Even if its just sitting close and leaning their head on your shoulder. Those little things can mean more to a little soul than anything.



Even though Luke didn't I was emotional and I didn't show him. Angie knew. Cause all I was thinking is how this "woman" that had this sweet little boy doesn't even know the kid that he is growing up to be. Which is totally her loss but yet one of my best friends gain. She not only has two wonderful gorgeous biological girls she also has a son that God blessed her with when she married her wonderful husband that God also picked for her.

All in all that was a wonderful night!

Doctors Appointment

So I needed to get a physical with my family doctor so I scheduled it. I always dread them because I usually leave with having to change a million things and do better, loose weight, take pills, up my dosage on my medication. So Tuesday I went to get my blood taken did the whole starving (fasting). Then Friday went in. I was totally nervous because if you don't know most of my appointments don't end so positive.

Got in the office and filled out my paper work. Then got called back. Had my temperature checked and weight. I was down 13.5 lbs which was good but I had gained 12 lbs during my last round of shots so I was really just down 1.5 lbs but hey I took it. Then I sat in the office looking at magazines while the medical assistant asked me a million questions then Dr. Cohen came in and he is so nice( and not bad to look at lol) He went over the reason why I was there and then went over all my blood work. He said that my liver numbers were great, sugar was right where it suppose to be, my thyroid was perfect. Let me stop there and explain something. I have been on thyroid medication for almost 4 years thinking I NEEDED it and it was helping me because I had Dr. Mezor years ago telling me that I needed it and he just thought this was what I needed. Come to find out I didn't . I have not been taking my thyroid for over a month so it was out of my system and my numbers were at a 5.1 and suppose to be between 3.0-7.0... so there I am not on it any longer. My cholesterol was fine .06 higher than it was suppose to be so I need to work on that with diet and exercise. My good cholesterol was too low so I will be taking a fist oil that should help that. My iron was low as well it was a 9.1 and needs to be between a 11.1-14.5 so I was prescribed an iron pill to help and will check that in 4 weeks. That was pretty much it and he said over all I am healthy just need to exercise and eat better. And I totally agreed. So all and all I had a FANTASTIC visit. The rest of my appointment went great. I would highly recommend Dr. Cohen and the doctors at High Point Family Practice. Just wonderful people and always willing to go beyond the call of duty.

So now that my physical is over Neal and I will start our steps to IVF... Very excited and will blog more when I know more!

Happy Harvest!!

Things that make you go hmmm....

So as I sit here at night watching my dvr shows I think about things in the past few months that have made me go hmmmm...



1) Lets start out with the fact that I personally have had to go to the dentist over 9 different times for different reasons. Reasons for which were out of my hands and or control. I have always had a fear of the dentist and I now know that God has such a great sense of humor cause now I am going every week it seems like. But after my next two appointments I will have perfect ...well close to perfect teeth.



2) How some people take for granted the small things in life. Things like water, air, clothes, shoes, food. In reality those are not small but to others they are HUGE. There are so many people here in America and around the world that those small things would make a difference. So the next time you complain about not having the name brand of clothing that you want, or the store didn't have the certain type of ice cream remember: There is someone out there right now that only wishes they were in your shoes.



3) How some friendships come and go. I have had many people in my life that I have thought they were my "friends" but in reality I was just someone that was of a conviance for them. Where they could call me if they wanted to vent , barrow money, need a reference, want to chat about their "flavor of the month". However when it came down to it those people where NEVER there for me. I was just a mat that they could use. Well I have pretty much erased those people out of my life for which I am very happy. I have the most gorgeous friends , sweet, kinds, generous, caring God sent friends. For that I am thankful for!



4) My husband... I sometimes realize that I take him for granted and sometimes I go hmmm as to how lucky I am to have such a fantastic man. Now I know that some of you that are ready are like what... really lol well NO ONE is perfect. Only man that was perfect was and is Jesus. Neal lets me be me... if I wanna do something he never tells me I cant. He never says anything about my shopping habits lol. He usually supports me if I wanna try a new hobby. I can honestly say that over the past 2 years I have learn more about him then I did the prior 8 years. And thank God for that.

One of the last things that make me go hmmm is

5) children... I love children. I love their laughter, the way they smile and laugh at the most simple things. The other day Neal and I got the twins for the evening and we picked them up and it was like they won a million bucks. Neal and I have never given them a million bucks but what we have given them is unconditional love. When we get any of our nieces and nephews its like all we need to do is love them and that makes their world a better place. Children may say and do some of the most odd things. However children are truly a gift from God. Even though they are not perfect they still make you go hmmm...

I just wanted to blog about some things that make you go hmmm... i don't want this just to be only about our steps to our sweet baby but a blog about us and about whats going on in life and stuff in general...

peace and love

Just wanting to blog...

Ever feel in the mood where you just wanna write? And blog? Well I feel like today is the day. I know many of you that have followed our blog have been wanting an update. The truth is there is not much that has changed since my last blog. We are patiently waiting for December to get here to start the IVF process.

http://www.premierfertility.com/infertility_treatments/ivf.aspx

That is my doctors website and will explain the steps that we will be going through during this process. We start all this in the beginning of December and hopefully will get to do that actual procedure end of January beginning of February.

I am excited, nervous and ready all at the same time. Neal well he doesn't say much. I am not sure if its because he doesn't know what to say or just that he is waiting . He does have more patience than I do hence he married me lol.

Lately I have been praying a ton. Not that I didn't before cause we all know I did. But God and I have had lots of intimate one on ones lately. I find myself talking to him at the oddest times or maybe not so odd times but times that I should have been before. He is such a kind God. I never have felt so close to him. At times when I get down about things such as wanting a baby I just tell God and ask him to help me understand. Understand the selfishness of some people. The way that some can just have kids and not think twice about them shove them off onto other people and do their "own" thing. Understand why some women or people can be so selfish and ungrateful for what they have been blessed with and don't think of others that in ways would trade anything to be in their shoes. God helps me understand that For such a time as this that I am his daughter and that he is my provider and that He has HUGE plans for Neal and I.

I am still learning and in the end of all of this I will know just the reason why its taken the steps its taken to get there where we are. I ask God for direction with Neal and I. At times its hard I am not that great of a communicator and get frustrated both Neal and I do. Working together, living together helping with the business, me working, house, bills it can be a bit much at time and Neal and I get snappy but we both have to remember that those are worldly things that Gods much BIGGER than all of that stuff. Even when we disagree(which is often right babe?) we realize at the end of the day we have each other. A marriage that has been through some struggles BUT we have each other. A marriage built on Gods solid foundation. I am proud to be his wife and I thank God daily for our marriage and know that there will be great that comes out of us.

I always tell our family and friends that question things about how our life is I say " Why do you question us or the plans that God has for us? I don't question the road God has paved for us neither should you" I don't question I just wonder "Whats in store" I pray that often .

Well that's pretty much our update for now. I will continue to update everyone when I know more information!

Love & Peace

The Younts'

Whats been going on...

So many of my friends and family have asked whats the dillo about everything all the doctors visit. So here it goes. So after our last round of fertility shots we did not conceive however I had a ton of HUGE cyst. So the doctor put me on birth control what a shocker I know however the birth control was to shrink the cyst and that's what needed to happen. After the pills I needed to start a cycle needless to say it took three weeks to start not 5 days. My uterus was totally confused and it then went into overdrive. I started kinda slow and thought that it was going to end one week later however I was totally wrong after bleeding for 4 weeks straight my doctor decided to have me come in for blood work and see what was going on. This wasn't normal bleeding I felt like I was loosing so much blood I had no energy, felt tired all day, was in a bad mood, bloated. Even though all this was going on I still had to work a full time job, help Neal with the catering business, meet with clients, clean house, do my laundry and still help plan a wedding that I am in and and pray that during all this that God gave me the strength cause if He didn't I wasn't sure how I would do everything that I have to do. After my doctors appointment I was no anemic put on 2 iron pills twice a day as well as still take my prenatal. I was like WHAT IN THE WORLD! My doctor decided to put me on progesterone shots because my uterus didn't know whether to stop or start and I was not producing enough estrogen to stop so my wonderful sister in law Marcie gave me shots for seven days in the rump (yes I did say rump) it hurt but was suppose to make me stop. So after those I did finally did stop for three days and I started all over again which I was told by my doctor that I would but this one would be normal . AND IT WAS!!! WOOOOWEEE. Even though my iron level this past week was still an 8 was better than a 5.8 and I feel allot better. I can tell that I am getting my energy back and should be back to normal within a couple weeks!! I actually walked allot today and didn't feel like I was going to pass out and I was better with shortness of breath! So now what...

Neal & I as well as doc deaton have decided that Feb 2011 will be the month that we do IVF. We will start in December with testing, blood work for both of us, line up times to get my uterus ready which I think is shots but I am not 100% sure all what we have to do however takes a month and half to get everything lined up. We are hoping to do the procedure of the transfers the first week of February of course all this depends on getting my body prepped as well as making sure both Neal and I are physically ready.

We are both leaning on God for strength and understanding that God is in ultimate control over anything not Neal, I or the doctors. We have the strength given by God to know that he is in control and we have to believe that. I pray daily and Thank God for the strenth to overcome what we have so far.

So I hope this updates everyone on where Neal and I are on this journey of being blessed with a little baby! We are totally excited and know that God has HUGE things in store for him and I. We just know it!!

Thanks for all the positive thoughts and prayers and please keep them coming!!

LOVE

Neal & Lizzy

A hold on our next step...

So today is August 4,2010.

Neal and I went to see Dr. Deaton today to discuss our feelings about adoption and to see how he felt about what we were wanting to do. I explained my feelings about wanting to stop the coaster ride and that it was just really starting to get to me. Dr Deaton was really nice and wonderful about how I was feeling. When we first started this journey we knew that IVF was possible however we always prayed that we wouldn't have to take that route only cause we wanted the medications and such to work. With a person that has PCOS like I do it takes allot more sometimes then just medication to stimulate my eggs. Doctor Deaton explained to Neal and I the process of IVF and that I am a perfect candidate for the procedure. Doctor Deaton was not aware that my insurance covers IVF. When I told him that I would like to adopt he said that it was a great idea that he and his wife have adopted and that its such a blessing to be able to give a child a home that other wise not sure where they would be. Doctor Deaton suggested we try IVF first and but the adoption on the back burner for now. Only because when we start the IVF procedure he wants us both to have clear minds and not be stressing over the adoption process as well. So here we go...

In December we will contact Angela with Dr Deaton office and we will start the process to start IVF. I know that this may be another emotional ride but God will help us with that part. I am a pretty strong person and have been through allot so this is just another hump in the road ... Once we finish all the first process stuff we will do the actual procedure in February 2011. Exciting I know!

I am really excited about this. I am going to work on my weight and get my BMI down. The anesthesiologist requires that I be a certain weight I am only 9lbs from there however I want to loose more like 15-20 lbs. Neal and I are going to join the Thomasville Y (after I get my crown on my tooth) and start working out and eating better not just for IVF but because we need to for our future health and for us to feel better. So here we go.

After we have told everyone about now going to start adoption process ... we are not stopping those thoughts just going to try IVF. We may as well exhaust all our options and do what insurance covered. We may just try adoption as well. And in the mean time start taking better care of ourselves.

We know that with God anything is possible. We know that He is the ultimate decision maker and we give him the glory and honor for whatever our future holds.

Neal and I are really excited and its nice to know that we have a wonderful doctor that has the same belief's and that is there for us and will guides in the right directions. I feel allot better about what we are doing now.

So stay tuned ....

Our next step...

So here we are... The decision has come that Neal and I are going to start the adoption process. One that could take a while but that we are 100% fine with. God has made our relationship so strong and he knows our hearts. Do I want to carry a baby physically yes. However I feel that God may have different plans for Neal and I. We have prayed about this and know that whatever Gods plan is he will allow to happen. There just comes a time when you have to say " Have I had enough of this?" Five years of this trying is that ever enough? Not saying that if God blessed me with one physically now I wouldn't be super duper excited but that I am ready to move on. We have an appointment with Dr. Deaton Aug 4th about the adoption process along with if we want to move onto IVF. I am riding the fence right now about IVF for the pure and simple fact that I don't want to be let down again. Those of you that are reading this may not have had to go through what I have been through and may not understand my choice not to keep trying as hard as I have been but some of you may have. I just know my heart and Neal knows his and we know no matter what if we have a child biologically or adoption that baby will be loved and taken care of until God sends us home. We are so ready to become parents and will be lucky when that day comes. God works in his own ways and timing I know this. I guess I am just drained and to the point where adoption has always been an option and now we are going to explore it. We have talked to several parents that have adopted and God really has blessed each other families that we have spoke to. We know its gonna be a ride as well but for some reason I see more light at the end of this tunnel than I ever have before and for once in this last 5 years I can say that I am at peace with things. We have a great support group , wonderful family and friends that have been on this ride with us thus far and we are excited to hopefully be bringing a baby into this blog before we know it!! Til next time.... THE YOUNTS'

Desire for a little one...

Every since I was a little girl I have always wanted to be a mother. I think most women want that in some way shape or form. Well I have met some women that have no desire and that's their right but not me I have always wanted to hear a child call me "mom" A year after Neal and I got married I kept hearing " when are you guys gonna have one" So I knew that I probably was gonna have some issues being that I have never been "regular" so we decided that we would start seeing a fertility specialist in Greensboro I wont use names but just put it this way he isn't worth mentioning on anything that I write about. First appointment I was told A) I was young, B) I was extremely obese 3) my insurance didn't cover anything that I would "need" or this so called doctor said that I would "need" So one he took tons of blood work and discovered that my thyroid was all funny acting that's what he said all my weight gain was from and that he thought I was type 2 diabetic which later found out wasn't true he also diagnosed me with complex hyperplasia and that he recommended me to have a hysterectomy at the age of 24!! I was right at 24 at that time. I was in so much shock I didn't know what to think. I knew that wasn't what I wanted to do. He said one way to not have this hyperplasia was to loose weight so basically I was starving myself and NOT eating to loose wight I lost 36 lbs and he said that was good but he wanted me to loose about 30 more lbs I was livid! I tried to do everything that this doctor was telling me. In the mean time everyone was having babies and I just kept saying we were trying but not getting anywhere with this doctor. during this time we were blessed with twin nieces who in a way took the pressure away from having a baby and was able to spend time with them and help get my mind off not having a baby. After three years and this same doctor not putting me on any fertility medication and not wanting to go any further for treatment Neal and I decided to get a second opinion which was God sent. I talked with my current Fertility specialist about it and he told me there was nothing more he WOULD do to help me cause I was just morbidly obese, now the ones that are reading this that know me know 1) I am not a short girl I am 5'10.5" and I have never been skinny 2) I love food but I did loose the weight that he wanted me to at the time and yet it still wasn't good enough for this doctor. When he told Neal and I that I said some dirty things to this doctor and walked out... after over $22,000 of my personal money and my insurance money and 3 years later I walked away with nothing! At that time we took a while off to focus on our marriage and lifestyle and decided we needed change and needed time for each other since so much of that last 3 years was focused on a little one and wanting to be pregnant and having a baby that we let each other go and needed to focus on us and allow God to be the foundation of our marriage and life. After taking about 9 months off March of 2009 we met with Doctor Deaton at Premier Fertility Clinic in High Point NC... AND I will just say that he was God sent. Truly a blessing from Day 1! Neal and I met with him and he told me that even though I could loose a little more weight he has seen women ALLOT larger than I have babies, he talked to us about a time line and what he wanted to do. He was so nice and caring and never made me feel like a fat cow and has always made me feel like I am important. We started out with blood work and ultrasounds basically getting the basic information that he needed. He told me that I DIDN'T have complex hyperplasia (which if I did God healed me I truly believe that) he did want to get my thyroid under control and he kept me on metformin just because the side effect it had was it strengthens your ovaries... After getting my cycle regulated he decided that he would start me on clomid which is a fertility drug you take orally to help make your eggs grow which would help me ovulate well after 7 months of that nothing so then we moved onto femera and did 5 months of that and well still no progress. so then he decided that we would start the SHOTS one thing that we were sure that would get these stubborn eggs grow! Well after 14 days we had a couple eggs ready for the trigger shot which was suppose to release the eggs that were ready and then have timed intercourse so we did... and then we waited during that two weeks I got EVERY symptom that a normal pregnant lady would it was pretty interesting what my body was going through... well the Fridays before I was suppose to find out my aunt flow came the first time in my life that I NEVER wanted her to come. I was ok at first and then had a a really hard time understanding why me? Why me when so many girls out there that don't have a anything can just get pregnant or women that have 3 or 4 and cant afford them and end of being on government assistant can just up and have as many as they want. How teenage girls in high school that don't even know what they want to do in life are just popping them out left and right. How come I had to be barren how come that I am not being blessed like it says in the bible women are suppose to be. How come the confirmations that God has given me through other people have not taken place. Have I not lived the life I was suppose to? Have I been that bad of a person? Am I too mean, too nice and I just not worth being called a mother? Those things went through my head at that time until I realized that I am worthy and that God has a big plan for Neal and I. It may not be the time right now to have one biologically but I will have a baby.... my next blog will explain what we are gonna do going forward:)

Story of us....

Neal and I go way back ... We met in high school when my sister and her boyfriend were dating Neal was kinda the tag along third wheel and well I wasn't the liked younger sister. I was kinda a pain to everyone kinda a brat. To let people tell it I wasn't a very pleasant person to be around. Anyway that's when we first met. Then he graduated from college and I never really was around him. Then my first year home from college for my nieces 1st birthday party I saw Neal and was like wow he is allot hotter than I remember. Well apparently he thought the same thing. Well he says I am was more mature and "grew up" not sure really how he meant that but I was digging it. We talked allot over the next few months and then decided to start dating. Even though I was still living in college in Charlotte we decided to go for it. It was the beginning of a really nice relationship. Neal and I just clicked we were really different but yet looking for something that we both were missing. We continued to date he would come see my every Monday night and take me to dinner and then I would come home on the weekends and we would go out and spend time together. During my time in Charlotte Neal and I really bonded and fell in love. On valentines 2000 Neal and I went downtown Charlotte one of favorite things to do just to walk around and enjoy the big city Neal told me at four points that he loved me... at that point we knew we were gonna spend the rest of our lives together. I graduated college and moved home and our lives were starting to get more settled I finished college at WSSU and he continued to work for a local caterer. Three years later of dating and getting to know each other on January 5 2003 Neal proposed at the same place he said he loved me ... and I said yes!!! A year and three months later April 3 2004 we were married at Neal's families church we had a gorgeous wedding everything that I ever dreamed it would be... and then Neal and Elizabeth were one... in the next few blogs I am going to blog about our history of trying for a baby . My doctor told me allot of times when women blog just to blog that it helps with just getting off a person chest just to get it out ... Neal and I are pretty open people and this is just another step for us to do this together... we hope those of you that are watching this enjoy our blog.....