Our next step...

So here we are... The decision has come that Neal and I are going to start the adoption process. One that could take a while but that we are 100% fine with. God has made our relationship so strong and he knows our hearts. Do I want to carry a baby physically yes. However I feel that God may have different plans for Neal and I. We have prayed about this and know that whatever Gods plan is he will allow to happen. There just comes a time when you have to say " Have I had enough of this?" Five years of this trying is that ever enough? Not saying that if God blessed me with one physically now I wouldn't be super duper excited but that I am ready to move on. We have an appointment with Dr. Deaton Aug 4th about the adoption process along with if we want to move onto IVF. I am riding the fence right now about IVF for the pure and simple fact that I don't want to be let down again. Those of you that are reading this may not have had to go through what I have been through and may not understand my choice not to keep trying as hard as I have been but some of you may have. I just know my heart and Neal knows his and we know no matter what if we have a child biologically or adoption that baby will be loved and taken care of until God sends us home. We are so ready to become parents and will be lucky when that day comes. God works in his own ways and timing I know this. I guess I am just drained and to the point where adoption has always been an option and now we are going to explore it. We have talked to several parents that have adopted and God really has blessed each other families that we have spoke to. We know its gonna be a ride as well but for some reason I see more light at the end of this tunnel than I ever have before and for once in this last 5 years I can say that I am at peace with things. We have a great support group , wonderful family and friends that have been on this ride with us thus far and we are excited to hopefully be bringing a baby into this blog before we know it!! Til next time.... THE YOUNTS'