Keeping you updated...

So today is the day that I was suppose to start another round of IVF well it is not going to happen, lets go back to Monday...

Monday morning Neal and I had to be at Forsyth Hospital at 6:00am for my surgery which most of you know that are reading this was a DNC. Now most DNC are quick and and easy and done in 25 minutes. Well as you all know by now NOTHING goes normal with me. Which as I have been told I am special all my life I am starting to believe that I am more special and so is my unique body or the way it chooses to operate. So I wont go into the details of the surgery you can read online what happens . I will tell you that an epidural is easy as pie. I barley felt him put the needle in but I did feel the medication go in only because 5 seconds later I didn't realize I had a lower body which was kinda strange and weird. Anyway Surgery took 40 min and recovery was over 3 and half hours! I finally got to get up and use the bath room was a fantastic feeling! Anyway Dr. Lewis (which ladies he is by far way hotter than McSteamy on Grays) he said that everything went well and that he sent my lining to the pathologist. Afterwards Neal and I went to meet my nurse sister Alietha and my niece Sarah. They were taking care of me since I had to be watched for 24 hours after the epidural and surgery. We ate then I went home and slept most of the day.

That evening my back and hips were killing me. I was kinda confused as to why but just thought it may have been the epidural side effects. I just took more pain medication and that helped. Tuesday I woke up in sever back and hip pain again. I then called the doctor and she said that Dr. Lewis had to raise the stirrups more (cause he is tall and I am tall) during surgery so there was more pressure on my back and hips. Hence that's where the pain is coming from. She also told me it would be a couple days for my report from the pathologist to come back which that was totally fine.

I finally came back to work on Wednesday and hoping and praying to have answers by Wednesday because we all were wanting to start IVF cycle Friday. Well I got a call from Dr. Lewis office and I thought THANK GOD no more waiting. However it wasn't the call I wanted! Dr. Lewis spoke with the pathologist and she said that there was no way she could get the report back to us by Friday being that she had to send it off to get a second opinion and special die on some of the cells. Now I know what you guys are thinking " What could it be?, Why are they testing for more? Could it be the C word? " There are a million questions that ran through my head that day. Feelings of doubt, frustration, aggravation. The unknown. The nurse at Dr. Lewis office told me that the pathologist just wants to be really through before her diagnosis. So I said OK and immediately called Dr. Deaton my fertility doctors office to speak with Angela. Dr. Deaton is out of the office this week so she is the one that I spoke with. She was aware of what the pathologist said and we had to make the decision that at this time since we do not know the results we had to both agree to stop the IVF for March. I was devastated however I have to make sure that I am OK and healthy enough to carry a baby. End the end that's my ultimate goal here, but how can I carry a baby IF there is anything negative. So no IVF this month.

I had a little break down at work. Most of you don't see me all the time or hang around me enough to know that I am strong, I usually don't show emotion and I go with the punches. I just pray allot and as God to give me the strength to handle anything that comes in our way. I know that God paid the ultimate sacrifice for me when He died on the cross so that I don't have to have pain, suffering. I am not sure why this is having to happen to us and why I have to well it seems always something come up when we are headed into IVF or in the middle of IVF. I don't have those answers. I just pray that God opens my heart and mind to understand the unknown and to know that NO MATTER what comes up He is ALWAYS there. God and I have had some heart to heart talks more this week then before. He knows I am stubborn and I strong and knows how much I can handle. It goes back to that saying" I know God will not give me more than I can handle, I just wish He didn't trust me so much"

So here we are in the waiting game again. I will hopefully find out the results next week and as we will go from there. Neal and I have prayed and talked and prayed some more. How we will go about doing things, what we will do next, What are our other options, keeping an open mind and heart to hear Gods word to direct us in the next steps. Until then we will pray and seek God, fill our hearts and mind with positive words, encourage each other, listen to our favorite 94.1 KLove, read The Word.

Please keep us in your prayers as the unknown is the worse but we know that God is our comfort! We love each of you and thank you guys for your constant prayer and standing in the Gap for whatever will come our way!

Love you all

The Younts'